Monday, August 11, 2008

2/3 of the Way....And a Touch of Home

Sunday morning and the alarm goes off at 6am. I could sleep in as we don't have church until 9:30 but there is a lot to get done and so I get up and start with laundry. The laundromat is close so I load up my bike and head off into the sunny cool morning. This is how I like to bike. Solo with the world waking up around me. I am the only one at the laundromat so as my clothes go through the cycles, I actually get to read the book I have brought and escape in peace. I miss having this type of time and space. I head back to camp, all my belongings clean and prepare for church. I am not riding into church today. Vonda, who is from Wisconsin, has asked to. That is a good reason to concede and the right decision. The service was lively and the pastor was terrific. During the greeting between the congregation, for the first time since the tour has started, someone came up and asked if I was on the support team. Nope, I'm actually cycling. I told Nick who was sitting beside me. He just shrugged, "Be happy that it hasn't happened more!"
After church we had an enormous lunch prepared by the church. Delicious! I finally got to meet Marti's husband, Coby who has joined us as SAG for our final weeks. He was kind enough to take me on some errands.
My air mattress has given up it's ghost after 6 weeks. It has been wonderful but sprung a leak last week. I woke up wondering what was rubbing my tender behind and behold it was the ground! Pathetically, every hour found me half asleep,blowing it up again. Dale had helped me patch it but last night I was working to keep it alive again. Time to buy another one. $15 well spent!
Back to camp and to my delight my friend and pastor, Pieter and his wife Margaret had arrived! Hugs from home brought tears to my eyes. Pieter is joining the tour for the last three weeks. It was exhilarating to see his excitement and joy. As Pieter settled in, Margaret asked if there was anything I needed to do. Yes, Movies and still needed to find an Old Navy for new pants that fit. Margaret was game and Barb decided she could use the escape of a chick flick too.
As Margaret carted me around, I realised just how much I appreciated her willing service. To her, I was not a pain or burden to be tolerated politely but a friend in need who she could help. I realised that this was something that I had been dealing with on SeaToSea. That I have, at times, by a few people, just been an inconvenience that was interrupting the community and tour. Some one who just didn't belong, who didn't know what they were doing and probably shouldn't be doing this. But then God whispered to remind me of the many in this group who have cared and loved me over the last 6 weeks, with grace, appreciation and love. And on my blog were many comments encouraging me along once again and my spirit was renewed to my goal and purposes for completing SeaToSea.
Margaret and Pieter also brought renewal in a change of wardrobe options, shipping some of my unnecessary and old stuff home and greeting and gifts from friends. Heather, Holly and Hannah sent a great package including a sign "Help Wanted" for when I needed to flag a SAG.
A rubber chicken stress ball and a package of water bomb balloons that might be beneficial in warding off approaching sweep teams!

My tent looked like a bomb had gone off as I tried to re-organize and divide into staying and going piles. Several people came by and laughed- That all going to fit into 2 baskets and 50lbs? Sure...give me some time.
As I loaded my stuff back into the gear truck, once again there was a debate over the weight of my bike and whether it was appropriate for the tour. Here was my reasoning.
Listen, it is the right bike for me. I did a lot of research before I bought it.Dealt with a great bike shop that knows both me and my life. I also consulted with physios, an ortho surgeon and a triathlon coach. This bike fits me. It probably isn't what would work for you. It probably isn't as light as it could be. It probably could have thinner tires. Here's the truth. I like that bike. Although it has been tougher, it is still getting the job done. I could have easily spent 3X as much on a better road bike that was lighter, more aerodynamic, professional but then what? What would I do with it after the tour? This is not about becoming a serious cyclist for me. I just wanted to take something I do casually and practically and see if I could push the limits and do something for someone else. Buying a road bike that I wouldn't use after just doesn't make sense for me. Buying this bike and using it regularly to run errands, commute to work and go for a real "short" ride- 30-40kms a few times a week after the ride will mean each time a chance to relive a small piece of Sea To Sea in my daily life for years to come.
That is the right choice for me. Is it too much to have some respect and understanding for my well thought out choices even if they aren't the same ones you would make?
I'm 6 weeks done. I can't believe it's really happening. I'm really cycling across the continent. I'm really meeting some amazing people. I can really make a difference in some one's world-one pedal stroke and one stop at a time.

10 comments:

Anonymous said...

Gayle,
Art and I were wondering the other day if you were feeling the need for a another set of clothes for variety, and here you talk about that. Glad that Pieter and Margaret could join you, boost your spirits and lend a hand!

Gerrit came home late last night from the Cadetoree -- muddy and tired. All his stuff was wet and we threw the first load straight in the washing machine. He is missing one of his duffle bags, as his group was in the wettest area, and they were first told to just take the essentials when they were evacuated. Len's trailer is still up there (it was too muddy to get it out), as is Harvey (he still is helping with tear down), so Len will have to go back up again. Hopefully they can find Gerrit's missing stuff. Gerrit had a blast and I'm looking forward to hearing more stories today. Right now the kids are still all sleeping -- I think they were trying to stay awake until Gerrit came home.

Heather F. said...

You sound tired my friend, and a little frustrated! In the words of our wonderful Willemina "Community can be messy". May God give you the strength for the final push and bring you home safe to us next week, and the week after. Glad you liked the package, we had fun putting it together.

Hugs
Heather

Tracy said...

Did you get your sunglasses, guitar and gum? please tell me they made the journey with Pieter and Margaret...

Anonymous said...

Gayle,

True that "community can be messy" stuff. Goodness, goodness, my friend. I am so glad that you had a moment to feel genuinely loved and cared for, and that that moment reminded you of others like it on your way across the continent.

You are doing tremendous work, friend. Keep going. Your reflections on how your choices are not what others may have made, but they are nonetheless good choices for you, remind me of so many conversations with folks who find themselves dancing around a precarious financial situation - the very folks you ride to support. I think of the way they are criticized for the choices they make - maybe deferring a bill payment in favor of a special treat for a child, or choosing higher-priced nutritious foods over cheaper dented cans and reduced produce, or choosing social assistance over a minimum-wage, full-time job in order to have benefits and to spend time with the kids.

Folks that choose a pack of smokes over a cheeseburger because the smokes will curb the appetite and last longer.
Folks that will choose 4L of coke over 4L of milk because it's cheaper and doesn't spoil.
Folks that will choose a bus pass over an infant car seat because babies can be carried, but car seats don't get you very far across town.
Folks that go out for coffee with a friend, even though spending that money on coffee means forgoing groceries at home, because the social contact is needed more.
Folks that will choose groceries over prescription meds when money is tight.
Folks that are elated that they can now - as of just a few days ago - continue to tithe while on social assistance.

You are cycling for these folks whose choices are scrutinized with every action they take.

Have strength, Gayle. Continue to stand by the good choices you are making, and remember those who are doing the same.

Be strong, take heart, and wait for the Lord. (Ask Pieter for the reference.)

Love you billions.

Heather F. said...

Sometimes Holly is so smart she makes me cry!

Anonymous said...

Keep it up Gayle. Jesus wasn't all that popular either so HE knows what you are going through. Not everyone in life is an encourager so I am thankful that some people have come your way that are. Greetings from Hamilton.

Anonymous said...

Hey Gayle,
I cried when I read your latest blog, you sounded so frustrated I just wanted to jump through the screen and give you a hug....tomorrow at Trinity CC I can do that! You are stronger than you think you are and DO NOT doubt yourself!!!! Keep up the great work!!!!

Tracy said...

Gayle and Ralf made the 'On The Way' newsletter (or am I just behind in reading last week's?)!

The ice rink photo made it into the Your Turn section :)

Anonymous said...

Hi Gayle.

Can't tell you how much we appreciate what you are doing, and love your blogs.

It take courage to be yourself, so keep it up, we love you.

Anonymous said...

Are some of these people really so insensitive?! I would think they would just be so proud of what you are accomplishing. You know they always say when you are putting someone else down it is only to make yourself look better. Sure they are doing it too, but you admit that you are not a regular "serious" biker so you success means that much more! I guess I would try to not take what they are implying too seriously. You know deep down that what you are doing is an amazing feat; it is for anyone, but especially for you. Hang in there God bless. KP, GR