This has been a week of remembrances. It was 9 years ago today that my father passed away. He had suffered from Alzheimer's and I'm not sure he ever knew that I was sick. It was 1 month ago that I was hit by the car.
It's been a tough month, I'm not going to lie. And I'm not sure that it will get easier but that has never been part of the deal. Find hope....begin healing....embrace life.
I have a lot to be hopeful for. The same day that was the day I had my first diagnosis was also the first day I got back on a bike. It was a stationary bike and 15mins was all I could do...but it was a start. It reminded me that I still had a goal...a hope...the Sea To Sea journey. It's going to be harder, longer but there was never a promise that it would be easy. In my life, the best things never did come easy, challenge was always a part of the deal. Also this week I got notice that already I had received online donations...people responding to my request of 100 people giving $100. It reminded my that there are others with hope for me. Encouraging me. Supporting me so that we can give hope to those who are trapped in the cycle of poverty.
This week, with the help of my friends, my apartment came alive with my Christmas decorations. It also give me hope that although things aren't the same, they can be familiar and comfortable.
I think this is comforting for my ferret Murphy too. He is sad, it has been a tough month for him too. First he lost his brother and best friend. And then Momma hasn't been herself. I think the Christmas tree is a place of comfort for him. Familiar and warm.
I need to help him. Support and love him. Find the money to get him a new friend and bring him the comfort and hope that others are giving me. Trusting that God will provide.
And so, I take each day as it comes. preparing for Christmas, preparing for Sea To Sea riding not yet on my bike but on hope- mine and those who love and care for me.
1 comment:
Hooray for Gayle!,
I'm glad to hear that you are still healing and hopeful.
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